I don’t know where they went. One minute there was a ton of posts and then piff paff puff they were gone. Did I do something as I’m prone to doing or did I just press the wrong button?
If I tell Mrs G that I’m back to Post Zero she is going to look at me with that face of hers that says “again” but this time it was not on purpose. It took months to update every piece that I had wrote last time a I hadn’t the time or inclination to do it again. I’ve barely had either to write anything new in over a year.
So now I’m back at square one, again.
No well curated categories
No idea where to begin
Unlike other times when the delete detonation was pre planned so I could save everything I’m relying on finding old snippets where I can. I go through periods where I save everything but can never be sure. Not that it is a great loss, a lot has been posted and reposted so many times I can’t even remember when I first did it.
It’s strange to think that I may have lost 7 years of prose, and even stranger to think that’s how long I’ve had this blog. This causes me problems restarting because I still don’t know what I want his to be.
I’m a very different person to the guy who began this in 2011, I didn’t even know Mrs G when I first registered this domain and now I have a wife and two kids. The problem is that I’m not defined by being a geek, a husband or a parent so what do I write about?
My interests have changed from pop culture as my life became busier, I do more cooking now and have fewer political outbursts. I can’t remember the last time I sat down and watched sport and my reading list now consists of which book I want to tackle this year.
In the midst of all has been a complete stop on doing anything creative. The last time I can remember posting was on New Years Day. Since then nothing. I’ve given up amateur dramatics, and haven’t even considered a new hobby. The only thing that comes close to making something interesting is dinner.
It feels like 2018 has been squandered.
So 2019 is going to be a restart, I’m going to try and lead a more fulfilling and be a better person than just floating in a pool of meh.
In the 2019 I’m going to do more.